or how i learned to love the bomb

your hair's on fire, you must have lost your wits, yeah?

pumpkin soup

the lights are on and someone's home

i'm not sure if they're alone

there's someone else inside my head

living there too fills me with dread

this paranoia is distressing

and i spend most of my nights guessing

are we not, are we together?

will this make our lives much better?

all dressed up for

i pack my suit in a bag

i'm all dressed up for prague

i'm all dressed up with you

all dressed up for him too

prepare myself for a war

before i even open up my door

before i even look out

i'm pissing all of my bullets about

bittersweet adeline

it's a picture perfect evening and i'm staring down the sun

fully loaded, deaf and dumb and done

waiting for sedation to disconnect my head

or any situation where i'm

better off than dead

i saddled up my pony right

"and if you think i've gone too long

listen the sky will sing this song

as it burns up all the memories

that flow like water out of me."

rainy town

"i'm sentimental so i walk in the rain

i've got some habits even i can't explain

i go to the corner, and i end up in spain

why try to change me now?

i sit and daydream, i got daydreams galore

cigarette ashes

there they go on the floor

go away weekends

leave my keys in the door

why try to change me now?

why can't i be more conventional?

people talk, and they stare

so i try

but that can't be, cuz i can't see

my strange little world just go passing me by

let people wonder, let 'em laugh let 'em frown

you know i love you

'til the moon's upside down

don't you remember?

i was always your clown

why try to change me now?"

everything worn is/was free:

clown skin dimbula(?) rose lucky board

new hair from BC322 lucky board exclusive pink color (ty hempy)

dilly dolls lexia parasol white

momo previous group gift dress in, you guessed it, pink.

shot at creamshop/rainy town

rabbit in yr headlights

"the only thing that burns in hell is the part of you that won't let go of life, your memories, your attachments. they burn them all away. but they're not punishing you. they're freeing you of your soul. so, if you're frightened of dying, and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. but if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth."

cheap:

whippet & buck bustier in black discounted fatpack at some point

ferdinand tattoo from [TH] the habitat from 50L friday i believe

free:

com des inspired easter bunny hat old gift(?) from (royal blue)

mynerva geekgasm hunt gift skin & shape & lashes

tekuteku soap hair in mint current group gift

atomic leggings from previous group gift

surf couture black flats previous group gift

miasnow eyes gift or hunt prize

shot at nodari mainstore

here comes the fear

it's almost my birthday again. call it serendipity, i did a unicorn post my last birthday... here i am in another unicorny moment. linked the unicorns last birthday post as well, i'll use a different song this year. i dunno if i'm a sea ghost really, probably more like a land ghost, but definitely ghosting out. i shot this aimed up at the sky because the background in the sim wasnt working for me, did one processing tweak in picnik and i really like how blazingly bright but at the same time muted it turned out.

worn: illusions unicorn horn, miel necklace previous 50L friday item, leezu pants, cupcakes swimsuit/bra top previous easter hunt gift, imabee skin previous group gift, exile freebie hair kyanna in harlow blonde, plastik blind prim eye previous gift of some sort.

rose tinted glasses

lost in the pixel flowers again

there's no home for me here...go away.

worn: lamb hair, acid & mala leggings, /me mouthtag, shampoo bead necklace, glam affair skin

"

i'd like to think that all of this constant interaction is just the kind to make you drive yourself away. each simple gesture done by me is counteracted and leaves me standing here with nothing else to say. completely baffled by a backward indication that an inspired word will come across your tongue. hands moving upward to propel the situation have simply halted and now the conversation's done.

...

i'm only waiting for the proper time to tell you that it's impossible to get along with you. it's hard to look you in the face when we are talking so it helps to have a mirror in the room. i've not been really looking forward to the performance but there's my cue and there's a question on your face. fortunately i have come across an answer which is go away and do not leave a trace.

"

april showers

bring may flowers.

i love scribble.

this jumper makes me excited for springs arrival in a way that hadn't even hit me yet irl.

...this is the definition of my life

lying in bed in the sunlight

choking on the vitamin tablet the doctor gave in the hope of saving me

in the hope of saving me

walked in the corner of the room

a junkyard fool with eyes of gloom

i asked him time again

take me in and dry the rain...

("it's good."..."i know.")

worn: scribble april showers jumper exclusive to the spring bazaar, fuel coco hair in blonde, tyranny skin, sanu tiny little mouth flower hunt gift from the spring bazaar, vive9 eyes from previous freebie bag bonanza

hysterical coloUrblindness

having long since given up on the humans in second, not to mention first life, most of what i do in world is stand around lucky chairs sorting my hoardings. i know every fashionista can relate to the feeling of having "just one more folder" to sort before you log, pee, drink, or leave to do something else. which easily results in hours spent just..staring at a tee shirt waiting for the texture to rez. i have taken my sorting cues from miss radio who is very wise, and has her stuff arranged by colo(u)rs. staring at the monitor at 4 am trying to discern if a tee shirt qualifies as blue or purple or brown or white or grey or black has become my biggest complaint. ask ban, ask tazzy, i have been known to rant in twelve dozen offline messages about how my eyes are bleeding because i can't pick between the pink or purple folder for a piece of pixel clothing. i'm beginning to think there are cultural and personal distinctions in color perceptions....one persons blue is anothers purple. white actually means beige to some people. grey is good enough to be black for most. me? i'm anal. i would never deny the fact. at the end of the night at least i can laugh at myself for actively becoming annoyed at color conflicts in my sorting. and anyway, you can always just tint yr pics in picnik to be any hue of the rainbow. this post is just as meaningless as the distinctions in color labeling. yay!

so, while the picture here looks like what *I* would call beige or brown, the clothes in world are actually all white. yay! absence of color. one of the easier to decide upon folders for.

worn: oyakin group gift skirt, ohmai tube bra, tiny bird sleepless hair, lara skin, fairytail bracelet, epoque/mpb the white rose necklace

relevant, per "sleepless"

new york new york

i won't go back

indelible reminder of the steel i lack

i gave you seven years

what did you give me back?

a jaw-grind disposition to a panic attack

worn: cupcakes summer shorts, twosome tee, katat0nik hair, imabee skin group gift, glow studio tears, rc cluster hanky, a.y.y. chucks camping prize (in like 8 colors too), pig mit suspenders 50L friday item

[...this is like a youtube response video, except i'm responding to miss jennywrenling's Closet Explosion blog and her recent posts, first with an old soul coughing song and more recently with settings from new york city.]

i'm a lucky man

happiness, more or less
it's just a change in me

something in my liberty

happiness, coming and going

i watch you look at me

watch my fever growing

i know just where i am.

worn:

all clothes Ayumi from the new dollarbie store above enkything's, Leafy 50L st. pat's skin, tattoo lucky by GrungeInk, elf ears from Gauged COTB hunt gift, past group gift hair from Tekuteku, Schadenfreude collar previous hunt gift.

walls, 1, (2), and 3

i have officially decided not to even attempt to be second-life relevant in my posts. i do love these new leafy skins though. blushingly adorably smexeh.

...

and all around your island

there's a barricade

it keeps out the danger

it holds in the pain

sometimes you're happy

sometimes you cry

half of me is ocean

half of me is sky