don't go chasing [her]

i seen a rainbow yesterday

but too many storms have come

leaving a trace of not one god given ray

is it because my life is ten shades of gray?

i pray all ten fade away

seldom praise him for the sunny days

and like his promise is true

only my faith can undo

the many chances i blew

to bring my life to a new

clear blue and unconditional skies

have dried the tears from my eyes

no more lonely cries

my only bleeding hope is for the folk who can't cope

with such an enduring pain that it keeps 'em in the pouring rain

who's to blame for tootin' 'caine into your own vein

what a shame you shoot and aim for someone else's brain

you claim the insane and name this day in time

for falling prey to crime

i say the system got you victim to your own mind

dreams are hopeless aspirations

in hopes of coming true

believe in yourself, the rest is up to me and you.

worn: rebel-x black swan dress, deviant kitties hair, tyranny skin, plastik tattoo, lazy places hentai heels.

this is not another girls meets boy

fall's over. proceed straight to hell. do not pass go. do not collect 200 lindens.

love, love is like a stubborn youth

that you'd rather just deny

i'm walking on a broken roof

while i'm looking at the sky

worn

Nightshade-Hotaru dress in fall

Rotten Toe-Jane-pale skin group gift

rbcg. antlers

Deviant Kitties Savannah hair Swedish

LOVE tattoo - collar bone from Ms. Marleen Vaughan, maybe, if you ask nicely. and have cats.

creep (yes, it's me again, and i'm back)

the 23rd of loneliness

and we don't talk like we used to do

now it seems pretty strange, but i'm not buggin'

cuz i still feel the same

i keep giving loving 'till the day he pushes me away

never go astray

if he knew the things i did he couldn't handle it

and i choose to keep him protected

worn:

Beetlebones BB*bubbly silk dress in sweat pea [sic]

>Truth< previous group gift boots foxley

duboo leggings gift

risusipo chipmunk backpack previous hunt gift

Tiny Bird hair Girl Anachronism

*UB* mouth nom Toasty

Mother Goose's Rebecca skine-LB [sic]

somewhere we've never been

pages turning

lights are burning

see what you could not see

it's plain as the day

the night makes you pay

for what was hidden underneath

longing to leave

but begging to feel that

something will make you stay

gotta believe that this all leads

to somewhere we've never been

we won't run

we can fight

all that keeps us up at night

there is far to go now

let's not waste a minute more

in denial

happiness count: day 1. let's see how this goes. let's not waste a minute more of our lives.

things worn that make me happy:

leezu subo gift scarf

rotten toe angie glam skin 1L

elate! tuli dress in navy

wretched dollies chewed candy cane

don we now our ghey apparel

rainbows! they are colorful. as am i.

oh you want a musical subtitle? ok...

~why are there so many songs about rainbows?~

worn-Solange! 2008 holiday dress in gold, SLink 50L fridays sydney gold edition overknee boots, Armidi Limited zimbabwe necklace in [techno] and neon stacked bangles, W&Y yuki HAIRMIMI FREE3, *Staged* group gift skin Elizabeth 2 Crack Whore (Tanned). shot at sunny sim.

afghan wigs

you walked in

just like smoke

with a little

'come on come on come on'

in your walk

well, come on

i've been waitin', are you waitin'?

for my move, well i'm makin' it

so tell me baby, can you shake it?

if i can move it with you

will you let me take it?

i'll be down on my knees

screaming 'take me, take me, take me, take me, i'm yours'

studio version is so much crisper i wish it were on youtube.

worn: perhaps my favorite wig so far Lamb.'s new Oh Sugar in Powder, [Pink Outfitters] "B Side" Cardigan in light pink, [Pink Outfitters] AO2 Painters Destroyed Denim (capri) vintage wash, Cupcakes skin October group gift Daydream in Lace makeup Fairy 2 Pink (Freck), CrazyBitch Tattoo - Evil Neko.

when the power runs out we'll just hum

she thinks she missed the train to mars

she's out back counting stars

worn-new Paradisis outfit "Superstar" 100L limited time, (NS) nait smith rosary bracelet, HOM House of Munster Ballz 2 the Walls hair solid black, Twisted & Spoiled superstar jewelry set choker and armbands, Pink Fuel skin Skye - Ganguro.

isn't she?

pretty in pink?

worn

Iren bats tattoo free halloween gift

vika hair pink free on group shelves from Rotten Toe

Pink Fuel skin Skye Nightfall

Adore & Abhor The Secret Keeper mouth piercing

all of her lovers all talk of her notes

and the flowers that they never sent

and wasn't she easy

and isn't she pretty in pink

the one who insists he was first in the line

is the last to remember her name

he's walking around in this dress that she wore

she is gone but the joke's the same

yesterday i woke up sucking on a lemon

so today seems to be about depression awareness. funny, i am keenly aware of it everyday. it doesn't take a genius to surmise that i've dealt with my share of mental illness. being depressed is like being in a tunnel where you can't see the light at the end. the quandary becomes pretending that you can see the light well enough to walk towards it. if a light exists at the end of the tunnel but you've become blind, does it still shine? instead of more rhetorical musings i'll leave you with one of my favorite songs about suicide.

elizabeth on the bathroom floor...

laying on the bathroom floor

kitty licks my cheek once more

and i, i could try

but waking up is harder when you wanna die

ill as in sick

it's hard to see the fear inside

as i walk away from you

and distance overcomes the miles

as slowly i pull through

and i cannot reach the world today

cuz i'm suffering from you

and the more i think, the more i cry

as i walk away from you

worn

detour serendipity hair in violet

plastik vaelian skin in burn-feral, with animalistic ears (free in store)

exodi bewitched eyes

jm: mai high fever lucky board mouth thermometer/cheek blush combo

faun-uh!

calling all deer people. rbcg.'s kyrsten jigsaw had a rez-day recently and the store is all half off. tonight's the last night to grab goodies and randomness. the antlers, hoodie, and pencil "walrus" shown here are all amongst the must haves.

also wearing imagen lucky chair skin and truth hair.

from wearing crows to counting crows

i'ma paint my picture

paint myself in blue red and black and grey

all of the beautiful colors are very very meaningful

yeah well you know grey is my favorite color

i felt so symbolic yesterday

if i knew a picasso i would buy myself a grey guitar and play

[tyr rozenblum's verona's errand rags in crow for Haven Designs from 25L tuesday last week, pink fuel's group gift skin skye in grey with teeth]

note to self: find perfect blue buildings for next photos.

quoth the raven, 'nevermore'

all the designers united crow stuff reminded me of the dark romanticism of poe. i made my avi into the sexiest morbid bird i could. halloween and drastic temperature differentials always make me grayer than usual. if the crows would stop cawing you might hear my tell-tale heart breaking.

worn

Ayumi super pale skin for Casper ghost hunt

Tiny Bird hair Kissy Kissy in pepper

Iren group gift mouth accessory

Silent Sparrow crowjane tats

!Ohmai Feather Cardigan Blackcrow

Milk Motion My crow cape with bow

Armidi Limited Kogo Skinny Pants [Simply Black]

Elate! charcoal rose ring

Kunglers black nail polish

The Black Canary Divine Right mini crown

gray days

postcards from prettiness. dear self, don't forget to stop and smell the prim flowers.

worn: ohmai! cocoon cove jacket (50L friday exclusive), ayumi angela skin (pretty witch hunt LE), Tiny Bird chelsea hotel hair in stein silver (50L friday item), [ skream! ] cobweb face ornament (halloween freebie or hunt prize), Cyanide eyes ancient blood demon (free or hunt prize). anyone who says your avi can't look great for free/cheap just hasn't started hunting.